When a heart breaks...

Some people think a heart can be broken only in the romantic sense. I'm not one of those people. Hearts can be broken by anyone whom you deem trustworthy... anyone you allow into your heart and soul who has the power to hurt you.

I don't know that you can truly love without allowing people in, and giving them the opportunity to hurt you as you trust that they won't. Here's the hard truth though... (and trust me the truth is reality and reality sucks): people are humans, so they hurt you. They fail, they mess up, and some people? Some of them just suck.

I've decided that there is a direct relationship between the suck factor and how close that person is to you. If it's a coworker you barely speak to, and they hurt you, that only sucks a little bit... but if it's someone who is in an integral position in your world, they have the potential to suck, a LOT.

To further complicate matters, the suck factor also has a direct relationship with outside circumstances... if they mess up when life is great, that sucks. If they walk away when you need them most, that sucks a HELLUVA lot.

I think Dave Barnes says it best...
Life, for now, I've come to fear
You've dropped me off and left me here
With nothing here to find my way
But the light you take as you pull away
It's a tear in the dark
All alone in the car
In pieces, pieces
It's the sound of mistake
As I'm lying awake and
Sleepless, sleepless
This is the sound that's made
When a heart breaks...

She ain't prejudice, she's just made in America...

I love music; I'm terrible at it, but I love it. It's no secret that I love America, and it makes me sad when my fellow Americans put down our absolutely wonderful nation. So, Toby Keith's latest "Made in America" is one of my favorites... pair that with his "Angry American" song, and I get my fightin' shoes on with anyone who feels the need to bash the U.S. of A.

Maybe it's because I'm not that strong (physically in a health sense or emotionally because I could probably be hired as a professional crier), or maybe it's because I'm insecure and when people yell at me I panic, but nonetheless, I couldn't be in the in armed services. Not because I'm not willing to sacrifice, or because I don't believe in their cause; but because the United States military knows better than to let a perpetually ill, emotional nut job like me into one of their uniforms (ha, I'm comfortable with it, so we will call it being self aware).

Here's the thing though... this economic crisis, clearly sucks (sorry, there's no other word to describe it) and I do find it interesting that the first dip of the double dip occurred on what's his face's 50th birthday, but that's another story. It's sad that statistically speaking it's almost impossible for the Congress rating level to be so low... it's almost like they've worked at it. The finger pointing, name calling, and blame passing is seriously off the charts. But you know what is the saddest? What breaks my heart the most? The response of the American president (it's the title that some of our fellow Americans chose to give him... I don't like him, but I will still respect the position) and many of the American people, regarding the loss of life on Saturday when the helicopter of Navy SEALS went down.

Check out this video around the 8:44 mark... does anyone else feel excruciating pain at the lack of empathy and blatant disregard for the life of human life? I mean, is it truly "just a part of war"? Are these not real human beings that have sacrificed more than most ever will? They "meet their responsibilities together"? Their "legacy" is really the important part here?

This has nothing to do with his skin color, his political stance, or the fact that he doesn't like people like me. I'm not prejudice, I was just made in America... to believe in, stand for, and respect what is right about our nation and to at the very least express my utmost gratitude to those who fight, and my utmost sympathy to those who have lost loved ones while protecting the nation.

I'm sure this post seems as redundant as imaginable as so many things I write about have to do with the same issue... and no, I am not solely blaming that man for the mess that we are all currently dealing with, simply asking that he show respect to the dignity of human life. Not simply because of his position and title, but because he, too, is a human being, and technically, I guess (if Hawai'i is truly a state), he is an American.