My God is Mighty to Save

You know, it's weird. Bad things happen to good people and inversely, good things happen to bad people. The Lord will never cause His children pain, however he allows it because we live in a fallen world and though we have been saved by grace through faith, we are all still sinners.

Just when I think things can't get too much worse and my own personal sky is in fact falling, perspective knocks on my door then hits me up side the head. (And repeats, if necessary.) As I endure these struggles, I do so trying to rely on my own strength and though I don't blame God, I get a little agitated with thing after thing after thing going wrong. I know He doesn't cause them, and I am certainly aware I deserve it all and THEN some.

Yet it can... it CAN get worse. And unfortunately, it does. However, in this particular situation, not for me. For millions of people who already have nothing, their nothing is taken away from them through the earth literally crashing down around them for approximately 15 seconds. People dead, injured, trapped. Those who had some form of shelter now have none. Innocent lives lost, young and old alike. And while the Lord most certainly did NOT cause that tragedy and I KNOW it broke His heart to watch, He uses it for good to glorify His name. He uses it to put life into focus for absurd people like myself who are so far beyond blessed, who yes have to deal with trials, but who doesn't? How dare I get discouraged, how dare I ask "why", how dare I feel like I have it so badly when I truly don't understand what BAD is.

Forgive me Lord, please, as though I often sin and fall short of your glory, I seem to live in this selfish planet that blinds me from seeing past my own nose. As I pray for these people, I am reminded yet again of how self-absorbed I am and how ashamed I should be of myself. Though Jesus took that shame, it's not such a bad thing if it will remind me to stop dwelling on my own petty matters when I should instead use that energy to the good of the Lord and furthering HIS kingdom. My God is might to save, and I ask that He breaks my heart for what breaks His...